Letting go.

I have weaknesses. Yes, plural. Many weaknesses. Some people say this makes me human, some people say this makes me weak. I mean, the root word is "weak." Lacking strength in an area of life. Oh boy, that sounds serious.

There seems to be one weakness that is sticking out more than others lately. And quite frankly it's driving me off the deep end.

Holding onto to things that deserve to be let go of.

That's a doozy. Letting go. Moving on. Forgetting. It all sounds so easy.

Yet, it's the hardest thing I've had to deal with to date.

I'm the type of person that feels the need to fix everything. Leave no stone unturned.

This is a large cause of many heartaches and hardships for me. If it's broken, freaking fix it. Especially if its something you love. But how do you know if its not meant to be? If you're supposed to get up and move on with your life?

That's the thing. You don't know. And you may never know if it's worth letting go of, worth never seeing again, then okay. Fine. Move on.

Is it that easy?

Absolutely not.

You remember: people make mistakes. That is something else that makes us weak, and human.

Don't beat yourself over it. Understand it's a part of life.

Letting go and moving on does not have to mean that you are losing something.

You can look at it as a clean slate.

Cutting out a malignancy.

Okay, there's my message for the day.
WOOOOOOOOOO what a wild weekend!
I had clinicals at Truman Medical Center Obstetrics and NICU in the heart of Kansas City and oh boy, I don't even know what to say besides I loved it. The world of "baby" is so foreign to me; holding them, feeding them, knowing what to do when they cry, it is all very overwhelming. But the people I was privileged to work with shined a whole new light on it for me. And pregnant women? Yeah, thats not something I thought I'd enjoy being around either. Wrong. How enlightening, being around people that are bring new life into the world. It's like the unit had it's own glow. Sure, situations aren't always ideal, but these are the mothers that are so grateful for your support. I got to work in the triage portion, so this is the part where we make decisions on whether or not a woman is going into active labor or if she may be having a complication in her pregnancy. Needless to say, we were busy. And I got to learn and see a lot. Some that was normal stages of pregnancy, and some at the opposite end of the spectrum. It was a great experience.

What I didn't do, at all, was workout. From Friday to today, I have not done a workout. But that changes tonight since things have calmed down and my body has recovered. I have this whole week off from school and I get a tattoo on Wednesday, whoop whoop! Plus I just learned that my good friend Tad is working on my forewheeler as we speak, yessssss.

Until next time ladies and gents,

Cheers to letting go.